Resolution

 

It is a Saturday afternoon. Nothing unusual but silence. All I can hear is the ticking of the clock, the repetitive humming of the fridge, and the trickling of water outside of the window. It rains at least half of the year. That does not bother me but doesn't excite me either. I am a sun-loving person and the diminishing sun with each passing day has only diminished my interest in this place. Life outside looks scarily impossible here. Somebody said, “It's the feeling you gotta enjoy”. I doubt there is any life around to get that feel. I look outside of my window and find the withered trees, the once fully clad branches hanging bare hopelessly, the ever-shortening of days and growing nights that sum up the darkness around. They say - You choose to look for colors out of the colorless but I say you must have the options in the first place. I can do the choice after that. They laugh at my ignorance and childishness.

I am hopeful that there will be enough light very soon but the question is when. I am sure they must be wondering why I think what I think but I am unsure myself. I will come up with something solid tomorrow. I promise. And then they will have what they need if not in their entirety.

I want to believe that we have different seasons that are here for differing purposes. Some give us hope while others toughen us for harder times. Both, in my view, look optimistic enough for me to hold tight. I have very few answers right now but I intend to look for the rest, that's my new year resolution. I feel revitalized with each passing line here.

I wish you a very Happy New Year! 

Thank you :)